missing you...

i miss you.
i miss you and everything we do. i miss smiling with you and laughing at you. i miss hearing about your stupid day even though it was never really funny just kind of amusing. i miss your voice and you telling me blah blah blah even though god damn it irritated me and still does.. i miss hearing your stupid nicknames for me, and even worse, i never thought they were stupid. i miss the way you listened to me and thought i was funny. i miss how you always thought the world of me in spite of all my flaws and EVERYTHING. and it's not like that's even gone.. it's just that you're not around anymore. and i try really hard to tell myself that it's a lie and that you're not around for a good reason i know it's not true. i know you have a lot on your plate right now.. but i'm still hurt and i'm still wanting you in the worst way. talking to you tonight gave me the worst yearing feeling for you... i want you. i would give up anyone for you. and i mean that with all of my heart. i love you, i love you and god damn this hurts me. i try, i really do, ok? it just won't work much longer.